a new year
a new blog
a new post
a new take on life.
obviously, i’ve decided to try blogging again. this time however, there is a much deeper realization of the power of thought into written word, and the desperate need to ponder, actualize, and come to terms with the turmoil and joy that is often at odds inside of me. i’m pretty much a poser blogher though: the idea is super hip and engaging…for a bit. i really just have the tendency to go full throttle with something that entertains my short attention span, then fizzles out after the initial honeymoon phase.
however, now, i realize more and more my desperate need to think, ponder, and sort through the thoughts that run on repeat through my mind and heart. the idea of meditation seems so foreign and “spiritual” to me, not really relational. yet, as i closed out 2012, i discovered that the cry of my heart was to simply just think things through; to truly ponder the questions, the hurts and joys, and perhaps even the simple things of my day in a way that gives significance and value to each moment that i have lived. with all the turmoil that is currently possessing and obsessing our world, i do not want to miss even the slightest moment where God reveals His glory and His power to me, because i am so loathe without it.
so really, this blog is just a chance for me to engage what God is doing in my life in a new and exciting day. i have half written journals and ripped out notebook pages with random scribblings and rare glimpses of wisdom…but my mind runs at a dead sprint so often that my handwriting cannot keep up with the thoughts pouring out of my head, so i guess typing is the only way to try and comprehend all that is going on in the void between my ears.
im sitting in Java Coffee & Cafe, where their slogan is “wake up and live.” how simple a concept; how difficult to truly obtain. and yet, i think, not really. if i chose to worship Christ in my daily routine and meditate on His Word — then that is indeed, learning to truly live. i want to embrace that.
so, my ode to twentythirteen, well, i can’t take credit for the beautiful words. rather, i choose to embrace the idea, and thus, embrace this new life ahead, in the midst of questions and wanderings.
“I beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”
2013, let’s do this thing.